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Louis CK … Zen Master?

7 Oct

Louis_CK_ZenMasterAs I mentioned in my post last week, I’m expecting my second child now, which has brought a vast range of emotions, along with a profound appreciation for both the good and the bad of pregnancy … and life in general.

One day, while crying over, oh I don’t know, the way the morning light played upon the smiling face of a grandma and child in the coffee shop and a certain nostalgic briskness in the air (hormones), I texted my friend: “What the hell is wrong with me?”

She pointed me to the following video. Seeing Louis CK and Conan O’Brien staring back at me, I seriously thought she sent me the wrong URL.

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Great Expectations

3 Oct

Expecting
“That was a memorable day to me, for it made great changes in me. But, it is the same with any life… Pause, you who read this, and think for a moment of the long chain of iron or gold, of thorns or flowers, that would never have bound you, but for the formation of the first link on one memorable day.”
– Charles Dickens, Great Expectations

I remember finding out we were pregnant with Szaba like it was yesterday. We had just returned from Spain. It was a rainy October day like this one. I told Ryan when he came home from walking Pavlov. We immediately called Sue.

Newborn OnesieA few weeks ago, days before Ryan’s birthday and our tenth anniversary, I discovered I was expecting again. I wrapped a little onesie in a box and gave it to Ryan, whose eyes lit up with hope and disbelief when he opened it. It was the world’s best gift, a surprise from the universe to us both.

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